Sigh, as if to make it all worse I came to know just now that my cousin and aunt’s daughter is pregnant and my aunt knew. They were waiting to share the news more broadly once she had recovered. This feels like history repeating itself in the family and I am watching my own life from 14 years ago play by. Mom’s passing, her knowing we were expecting back then, and the devastating feeling it came with that she would not see her grandchild. This feels all too real seeing this play out again for my cousin. Life can be very cruel at times :(